Today during our sacrament meeting at church I had a small personal revelation. I am still a little unsure if I understand it. It was very strong and brought on very strong emotions. I then began to think of the revelation I had when Ben was blessed I heard a voice saying you are supposed to have another baby and that sweet baby ended up being our William so of course he was strong on my mind. Then I was caught of guard when I was asked to share with the Young women in the beehive class how it felt to loose William and how was able to come to have some peace knowing Where he is and that I will get to be with him again. (Witch is always a double sided sward) Then tonight I was looking in my closet for some batteries for my camera when I spotted Williams special box with all his keepsakes. I was over come with emotion when I opened this little box of memories. His little outfits, his lock of hair , his foot prints, spechale pictures and a few little notes that people gave me after his death. I always love rembering William and most of the time when I think of him I only feel happiness I rarely feel pain any more. Yet today It was painful to look at all his things . When I smelt his little outfit I could faintly still smell his wonderful smell. My arms did something they haven't done in a while they ached with almost as much pain as my heart dose. I miss and love you William.