This is what I wrote in my journal on one of the hardest days of my life.
Oh my goodness where do I start its been a really long hard day a day that started out with joy turned in to a day of disbelief and heart ache.
This afternoon I went to my sonogram appointment with my friend Aneeka we were so excited to see the baby and find out the sex.
Well we know we have a boy a special little boy a beautiful little boy with a broken heart.
Yes are sweet little boys heart is broken and it looks like he will not be getting it fixed.
Not only dose he have a broken heart the Dr. think he has a Chormosone defect.
If they are right our little boy will die.
After finding out this news I came home to find a very sick Ben I called a friend to come over and give us both blessings before I took Ben to the emergency room.
The blessing gave me comfort. I took Ben to the emergency room and found out he had phemonia.
Dale called while I was in the emergency room It was so hard to tell him the news about our sweet baby I am not sure he understands how bad it is. He called and talked to my Dr. and he explained what was wrong. The red cross is bringing him home from Iraq.
I am happy he is coming home but so sad that our baby is sick.
I pray that Heavenly father will give us the strength that we will need during this journey.
I am so sad and I just don't know what else to write so I will say good night for now with tears in my eyes.