Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Christmas after William

I am not going to lie I was dreading Christmas 2006.
I new I would probably have to fake the Christmas spirit for the sake of my kids.
2006 was a big year for us we started the year out burring William.

Then moving in June from the place we lived the last 6 years.
We loved Travis AFB and had many friends and friends that were family there.
I honestly did not want to move to Alaska.
I hated it there at first I was lonely and every thing felt foreign to me.
I made a few friends early on and tried to be happy.
When November came along I was a mess.
Garrett was baptized and that was great but I was still so sad.
I did not want December to come I dreaded the 14th Williams first birthday.
I decorated tress I decorated our beautiful home and I made cookies all the things that were needed to make the Christmas season fun.
The day before Williams birthday I found my self at the church my friend Kristy was setting up for the Nativity display they had done for the last 5 years.
I had no clue what was going on but went to help her.
I was so sad knowing that the next day was Williams birthday but the moment I stepped into the church something magical happened.
I felt a peace that I had not felt in a long time.
Everyone was so busy and happy doing there part to make the nativity what it is.
I got caught up in the spirt like everyone else.
I remember looking at all the Nativity's in awee.
It helped me get over the deep depression I was falling into and helped me cope with the Christmas season.
I felt the peace and comfort only the holly spirt can give you and I felt the love the savior had for me.
He new he new my suffering and felt my pain all those many years a go in Gasemmene.
I am so grateful for the gospel of Jesus Christ in my life and I am grateful for that Christmas miracle I had that day.
The next day my sweet friend Chaure came over with 17 balloons for me and my children in Honer of the 17 days William was alive.
It was so sweet of her.
We were also blessed with the 12 days of Christmas that year.
My sweet friend Lila and here family will never know how much that cheered our family up that year.
Even though life was hard Christmas of 2006 I was so blessed with the spirt of Christmas.
Later on I will share how I let the spirt of Christmas in 2007 it was the first of many years that I did this tradition.
Williams Birthdays presents.