Monday, December 29, 2008

A letter to William on his Angel day..


It's hard to believe that it's been 3 years since I last held you in my arms.
I rember all so well the last moments that you were in my arms it was so sad and so sweet at the same time. It was in the wee hours just before dawn I woke up to your little sneeze. I new at that moment your time was short and I woke your Dad up I rember telling him that it was time to say goodbye. I started to panic and I wanted to do what any mother would do I tried to keep you here I soon realized that your last memories didn't need to be of me panicking and trying to stop your new journey so I gracefully held you in my arms and whispered sweet words of love and promised that I would live a righteous life so that I could be with you again. The last breath you took was much like your first beautiful and sweet.
I love you very much William and I am forever grateful for the time you gave us to get to know you.
You will always be my baby and in my heart for ever.
I miss and love you every day.
Thanks for choosing me as your mother.

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55 comments:

Julie said...

Oh my gosh, just found your blog from SITS and now I'm all tearing up. So sad and so sweet.

Supercool Hotmama said...

Oh Jen, Big HUGS for you on this special day. I'm so grateful that you have the knowledge that families are forever and you will hold your sweet little William again.

Ritch in Love said...

What a beautiful post and rememberance.

The Blonde Duck said...

You're a stronger woman than I am. My prayers are with you today.

Jenn said...

I found your blog on SITS. Prayers for you and your family!

Jeanne said...

Visiting from SITS...what a wonderful post. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings so openly and generously.

Diane said...

I'm sure your little angel is super impressed with his Momma; how strong and loving she is. My thoughts are with you on this special day.

JANE said...

Oh Jen, Big hugs for today!

i'm black betty said...

awesome! congrats on being SAUCY!

Ter said...

Oh, Jen, you always have a way of making this girl all teary-eyed!!!

Happy Angelversary, William!

Beverly said...

what a significant loss. I am so sorry.

Allison said...

Hello, visiting from SITS. Since there are no featured bloggers this week, I decided to check out the "Saucy Blogs" and found yours....and I am so glad I did. What a wonderful memorial letter to your blessed son. It was a beautifully written love song to him. I know he is watching down on all of you! Even though it must be difficult, thank you for sharing it with us! {hugs}

On a lighter note, I love your blog name and design...I will definitely be back!

American in Norway said...

Big hugs! You are such a special mother, woman, person! I am am so happy I "met" you... Here is to a wonderful 2009!

Martha said...

I abide the loss of your beautiful son, William on his Angel Day.

I am visiting from SITS and send my heartfelt prayers to you and yours.

Elizabeth said...

Here it is just after 8 am and I too am already having my special memories today. Then I thought of you and ran to your post. You get me all teary eyed.

Then I go to comment and look how late I am in wishing you a happy memory day. I love you and I am thinking of you alot this day.

Lola....L..O..L..A....lo--oh--luh! said...

Thank you for sharing your sweet, peaceful goodbye. I wish you peace today! {{hugs}}

Small House said...

My heart achse with you. I to had a sweet baby pass away 3 1/2 years ago. That loss leaves an empty spot in my heart. But as you say, and I to believe, families are eternal. And how grateful we can be for that! My motto has been, smile when I can, cry when I have to. Just make sure I'm smiling more than crying. have a good day.

Sarah C. said...

Gorgeous layout and words, Jen. Big ((HUGS)) to you and your family. Happy Angel Day to William.

Rayna said...

What a hard thing to go through, but the Lord knew you were strong enough. I know that day will come when you get to see your sweet William again and be able to raise him then.
Much Love to you and your family!

Kerri said...

My heart is with you today. That was a beautiful post. Isn't is wonderful to know that families can be forever?

Kasey said...

What a beautiful post! I found your site on sits. hope you have a great week!

Kristin said...

Found you from SITS. Thank you for sharing your story of sweet baby William with us. You will meet again in heaven.

Shawnee said...
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Shawnee said...

Beautiful. I am crying with you in Oregon, smiling because he has you for a momma. Your Apronista friend, Shawnee

Jodi said...

My heart goes out to you. What a sad and sweet post! Just stopping in from SITS.

Jana said...

Love and Hugs-wow..what a touching blog entry. Too teary to say more.

Yarni Gras! said...

Jenn...you always express what needs to be expressed and you always do it beautifully.

shaina said...

Beautiful.

Nicole said...

Girl you made me cry! Hugs and prayers.

Jen - Queen of Poo said...

So sweet and sad. Be good to yourself this week.

Tiffany said...

Hugs to you on this special and sad day.

Jaime said...

What a beautiful tribute to your little angel!

Honey Mommy said...

That was so sweet. Thinking of you today.

MindyLew said...

I am visiting from SITS and enjoyed your blog. My prayers of peace and comfort go out to you. You have made me want to do laundry - but first I must get my fur and diamonds - I just can't seem to remember where I have them stashed. I hope I haven't been robbed!!! Well I guess laundry will have to wait!!
Have a blessed New Year!!!

Andrea said...

What a beautiful tribute to your William...

I've enjoyed perusing your sweet and sassy blog! I'll be back!

And, speaking of laundry (!), do you use the "Family Closet" idea that alot of larger families do?

I, as Momma of 5, use the system and is VERY helpful!

I have pix on my blog ... I just ramped the whole thang up a bit...

It's yesterday's post btw.

Again, thanks for being "SAUCY" and sweet!

Andrea

Jess said...

That was BEAUTIFUL!!!

Tina said...

That was absolutely beautiful. Best of luck for your family in the coming year.

Melissa Papaj Photography said...

Greetings from Utah! I found your blog from SITS...how beautiful and sweet...My prayers are with you.

Maven said...

Sending you a lot of love and compassion from across the miles.

I am so grateful on your behalf that you have those photos of William - beautiful little angel.

Love and Happy New Year from another SITS friend.

~Maven

TuTu's Bliss said...

Sending love and hugs. Thinking of you and your precious angel for the rest of my life. Thank you so much for sharing such a tender and loving part of your life.

hilde janbroers said...

this is such a touching message...
hugs

San said...

Arriving from SITS. I am so sorry to hear of your loss of your precious baby. My prayers are with you, and yes - you will see your Matthew again in heaven. :)

Tanya said...

HUGS!

the junkin' yaya said...

What a beautiful tribute to your angel! Have a safe & beautiful New Year....xo...deb

Lynette said...

A beautiful tribute to your Angel.
Keep him in your heart for he will always be with you.
Your a loving caring mom to know it was time to let him go. We all do this at different times in our children's life. Sadly you had to do it so early.
Happy New Year SITS-er

Lalapoo said...

Visitin from SITS.I am sorry for your loss.. thank you for sharing that moment with us

Mrs. P said...

(((hugs)))

What a beautiful tribute!

Bride Sophisticate said...

Found your blog through SITS. Like the pp have commented, that was honestly such a beautiful post and tribute to your angel.

May your New Year be filled with happiness and health.

All my best,

Elise said...

This was so beautiful and touching to read. You are so strong to be able to go through this and you have such faith. Such an inspiration to us all. Love you.

WillowLakeScents said...

Visiting from SITS ~ What a beautiful post & the photos are amazing. My prayers are with you.

Kimberlee said...

That is beautiful. I am in tears. What a wonderful mother and an amazing, sweet baby.

Karen (KayKay) said...

What a beautiful remembrance. Thank you for sharing it. I've said a prayer for you.

blueviolet said...

That is so incredibly touching. I love this.

I'm Always Rite said...

You are so sweet. :)

Yaya said...

(((Hugs)))