Thursday, June 24, 2010

I fell like I am drowning..

Everyone who knows me knows I am a very open person.
I am talker that's how I relive stress.
Something happened in my life that is big and not in a good way but I am unable to talk about it.
I believe the decision not to share with others is the right decision it's a very private and personal matter(Nobodies sick nobodies dying  and nobody had an affair)
I am just really struggling with not having control over the issue and having faith and trust in others.
I think that's the main problem is trusting somebody to do the right thing and not to place blame on the other party involved, swallowing my pride and not making it about who is right or wrong.
I just hope I can move forward .
I am just grateful that I have a husband who loves me and our children.
I am grateful for the whisperings of the holly ghost and that I have learned in time to trust my instincts.
I am grateful for a loving Heavenly father who knows how to calm my troubled heart.
I am grateful for the priesthood in my life.

For those of you who pray please keep me in your prayers.
For those of you who don't good thoughts help too.


8 comments:

Cherie said...

I don't know what you are struggling with but when you don't have control and it involves other people it can be SO HARD and so frustrating.
When I was reading your post a few incidences in my own life popped up and I could totally relate!
I hope you find a resolution that can be lived with and all goes well!

{{{HUGS}}} from Idaho!

shaina said...

You are such a loving person. I'm sorry that there are issues going on for you.
Thank you for being such a dear friend.

The Dean Family said...

You know me, I'm a big believer in talking things out. However, when you can't talk about something? Write it down. Write out your concerns, your questions, your fears. Just getting something "out there" really helps the soothe the soul. Prayers from our home to yours.

The Dean Family said...

PS - If you need a trip to the V-Ho, not to talk, but if you just to be bouyed by your sisterhoood of friends, name the time and we will be there :o)

Rhonda said...

I think the Holy Spirit is aiding you just from reading your post. My prayers are with you.

Andrea @ See it! Love it! Win it! said...

I"m sorry you're struggling. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Yarni Gras! said...

oh my, you are in our prayers. i hope this is resolved soon.

Ann Marie said...

I'm so sorry to hear you are struggling! My heart feels for you!

I will pray for you for sure...
Wish I could do more to help..