Moving forward 5 years later

August 25 2005 is a day I will never forget.

It's a day that has changed my life forever, it was the day we found out William was a little boy and that he was special.

This day was even harder than the day that William died.

I have mixed emotions about this day it was hard surreal , it's the day I really got to know William.

I have relived this day over and over a million times.

There is never a good way to learn a child of your is going to die but I was so blessed that day to have a wonderful friend with me and a Dr. I new and grew to love give me the life changing news.

I know can think of this day with less pain, i still have panic attacks every year as the date nears but the heart wrenching pain is gone.

I now can say I am grateful for this journey all of it even letting William go.

I have learned so much,I have been able to help others and now have a better understanding of the love that Heavenly Father has for each of his children, especially me.

Even with my growth I am still excited for the day when William is placed back in my arms and I get to raise him and watch him grow.

I am so grateful for the knowledge that families are forever.