Thursday, August 26, 2010

Moving forward 5 years later

August 25 2005 is a day I will never forget.
It's a day that has changed my life forever, it was the day we found out William was a little boy and that he was special.
This day was even harder than the day that William died.
I have mixed emotions about this day it was hard surreal , it's the day I really got to know William.
I have relived this day over and over a million times.
There is never a good way to learn a child of your is going to die but I was so blessed that day to have a wonderful friend with me and a Dr. I new and grew to love give me the life changing news.
I know can think of this day with less pain, i still have panic attacks every year as the date nears but the heart wrenching pain is gone.
I now can say I am grateful for this journey all of it even letting William go.
I have learned so much,I have been able to help others and now have a better understanding of the love that Heavenly Father has for each of his children, especially me.
Even with my growth I am still excited for the day when William is placed back in my arms and I get to raise him and watch him grow.
I am so grateful for the knowledge that families are forever.



7 comments:

Yarni Gras! said...

what a beautiful and touching post.

shaina said...

You definitely have touched others. You helped me through a similar trial in a way that nobody else could.
I was thinking of William yesterday. Now I know why.

Ann Marie said...

I'm grateful you see the blessings of this trial.. and you have this great knowledge that you will see him and hold him again!

The gospel is great!

You are great! :)

ter@waaoms said...

((Hugs))

Look What The Kat Dragged In said...

Love

Sarah C. said...

I can't begin to imagine what I know had to have been the most challenging journey. It has given you a great gift in that you can help others. I admire your strength and continued faith. ((HUGS))

Valerie said...

Time goes by too quickly! 5 years already. I just love you Jennifer! I don't know what else to say.