Friday, April 29, 2011

Sweet tender Mercies..

My friend Val had surprise for me to day she wrote blog post just for me about and amazing thing that happened.
You can read her post HERE.
2 years a go I sent her some sweet William seeds  to Val they never grew she was sad and had a hard time telling me this.
Last summer she decided to plant clover in the same pot.
The clover took off like wildfire it even survived the winter.
She got a little gnome and put it in the clover when she went to take a picture she noticed a small little sweet William flower.
I feel that it was a gift for me and no accident that this happened around Easter the time of year we celebrate Easter and the resurrection of our savior Jesus Christ.
It it through Christ atonement that all men and women will live again.
A promise I have held tightly to since Williams death.
 The promise that I will hold my son again and get the opportunity to raise him hold him and know him.

This reminded me of something that happened after William died.
I got a flower arrangement after William passed away from my childhood friend Beth It was Lilies with 2 white roses the white roses were for William and my friends little sister Marie.

Marie and William died the same day 17 years apart, Marie was very special to me I loved her so much and when she died at 7 years old I was crushed I was 15 years old at the time and it was my real first experience with losing a loved one. I gave the flower arrangement to my good friend Anneke the day of the funeral in Cali, because we were leaving to WY to bury him. She looked at the flower arrangement every day the Lily's died in a few day so she took the 2 roses and put them in a vase. She watched as the roses bloomed and got to there glory point as soon as they were at there glory point they died the next day. It just happened to be  17 day after Williams funeral. I cant help but think that this was God telling me that 17 days was Williams Glory point he did all he needed in the 17 days he was here on this earth.
I am so bleesed with so many amazeing friends and for the love and wisdom my heavenly fathers shows me trhough them. I am so blessed with tenders mercies that our kind Heavenly father has given me befor during and since the passing of William.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

How sexy are these shoes?

Pretty dang sexy I turned a lot of heads wearing these today.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Pray for justice!

I have never shared this story on my blog it's a hard thing for me to talk about and often makes me overwhelmed with anger and sadness.
About 4 years a go my brother was accused of and awful crime.
It was all based on a lie that his ex wife's family came up with to try and gain custody of my nephew my brothers son.
At the the time my brother had full custody of his son because his ex-wife was and still is an unfit parent.
My Brother is a good father and was doing the best job he could do raising his son.
His ex's family could find no legal way to get custody of my nephew so they played dirty and created a lie in order to gain custody.
To make a long story short the legal system failed my brother and he was sent to prison for 25 years for a crime he did not commit.
We always new he had an unfair trial we just never new the ex-stint of how unfair things were until a few days a go.
He was blessed with an amazing new a pellet lawyer who saw all the injustices that were made he is doing his hardest to right the wrong that was made.
The reason I am sharing this story is to ask for prayers on my brothers be half.
I am hopping and praying for a mistrial or at the very least a new trial.
The supreme court is reviewing his case in the next few weeks.
I am praying that there eyes will be opened and there hearts will be softened and that they will right this wrong that had been made.
Please keep my brother Carl in your thoughts and prayers.
It is my fondest wish to give him a big hug in month when i am back in he lower 48's.
Thank you.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Just hanging out.

Sunday Kadie came over with Dan for Easter dinner after dinner we just hung out and goofed around.
Not sure whats going on with Mylissas look maybe she is trying to act sultry.
Madeline must have felt the need to floss her teeth and saran wrap was all she could find.

And here is me just talking to my honey.
Love days like this.

Monday, April 25, 2011

Walking in the dark..

I feel like I am walking in the dark with faith being my only light .
Dale did not get the job we are bummed but hopeful the right one will come along.
Fear over whelms me some days knowing that in 2 months we will have no income if Dale dose not get a job but as soon as the fear takes over I feel comfort in knowing every thing will be fine.
I also can't believe that we are moving out of our house in a month renting it to a stranger and moving to Colorado.
We know this is the right thing to do but sill it's scary.
Hopefully in a few days we will have some more answers.
So I am begging again for more prayers that Dale gets a job soon.

Good old Fashion play.

I heard Ben shout out 3 men the rest down I am not out yet.
I went into his bedroom and saw this 

Army men set up all over his bedroom.
Dan my son in law Garret and Ben were all play an intense game of army men.
Dan was on one side of the room and Ben was on the other side

Garrett was in the middle

It was so fun to hear them playing.
No electronic just good old fashion Army men.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

My brave little boy.

When I was on vacation Ben's skin got neglected, not intentionally but all the same he is suffering because it.
His hands and feet are a mess and he is slowly healing.
Part of his healing therapy is water it sooths his skin and heps get rid of the dead skin with out damaging it.
His skin was so scabbed , bloody and raw putting water on it felt like I was pouring salt on it.
He screamed and cried I finally bribed him with a baggy of gold fish.

I left the room and when I came back in He had the fish in the tub with him.

He was singing a fishing I will go a fishing I will go I will put them in the tub heat them all and eat them all for diner.

Crazy fun kid.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Cold head hot chest!

I went to tuck Benny in bed and this is how he was dressed.

Yep a lumber jack hat and a bare chest.

When I asked Ben why he had a hat on he said "My head is cold" I then asked why he had no shirt on he said "My chest was hot"
The kid cracks me up.

It's my birthday and I will cry if I want to!

It's my birthday and I will take ugly pictures if I want to.

It's my birthday and will have pretty toes because I like them.

It's my birthday and I will eat nasty colored blue doughnuts with bunny sprinkles on them because I want them.

It's my birthday and I will get pretty flowers form my hubby for my birthday because he loves me.
{I just wish he was here to give me birthday kisses}

Thanks to everyone who has given me birthday loves and wishes.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

I am still alive

I have been so busy with everything thats going on that I haven't had time to write in my blog.
I feel like my life is on fast forward right now!
We are moving to Colorado in less than two month.
My tummy hurts every time I think of having to be out of this house in almost a month.
I haven't even started dejunking or anything.
My motto is just have faith that every thing will work out.
It has so far once we put our fears behind and have pure trust in the Lord every thing is starting to fall into place.
Dale is still in Co trying to get a job he has a 2nd interviews on Wednesday so please keep him in your prayers or thoughts.
Our house still hasent so if you can pray for that too I would appreciated that. 
If it dose not sale we will end up renting my biggest fear but I will just continue to have faith that it will all work out.
I have so much catching up I will be updating more tonight.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Mixed emotions!

Dale and I went to Williams grave for the first time in 5 years .It was very emotional and I have a lot of mixed feelings.
I will share more pictures and thoughts later.