Sweet tender Mercies..

My friend Val had surprise for me to day she wrote blog post just for me about and amazing thing that happened.

You can read her post HERE.

2 years a go I sent her some sweet William seeds  to Val they never grew she was sad and had a hard time telling me this.

Last summer she decided to plant clover in the same pot.

The clover took off like wildfire it even survived the winter.

She got a little gnome and put it in the clover when she went to take a picture she noticed a small little sweet William flower.

I feel that it was a gift for me and no accident that this happened around Easter the time of year we celebrate Easter and the resurrection of our savior Jesus Christ.

It it through Christ atonement that all men and women will live again.

A promise I have held tightly to since Williams death.

 The promise that I will hold my son again and get the opportunity to raise him hold him and know him.

This reminded me of something that happened after William died.

I got a flower arrangement after William passed away from my childhood friend Beth It was Lilies with 2 white roses the white roses were for William and my friends little sister Marie.

Marie and William died the same day 17 years apart, Marie was very special to me I loved her so much and when she died at 7 years old I was crushed I was 15 years old at the time and it was my real first experience with losing a loved one. I gave the flower arrangement to my good friend Anneke the day of the funeral in Cali, because we were leaving to WY to bury him. She looked at the flower arrangement every day the Lily's died in a few day so she took the 2 roses and put them in a vase. She watched as the roses bloomed and got to there glory point as soon as they were at there glory point they died the next day. It just happened to be  17 day after Williams funeral. I cant help but think that this was God telling me that 17 days was Williams Glory point he did all he needed in the 17 days he was here on this earth.
I am so bleesed with so many amazeing friends and for the love and wisdom my heavenly fathers shows me trhough them. I am so blessed with tenders mercies that our kind Heavenly father has given me befor during and since the passing of William.

How sexy are these shoes?

Pretty dang sexy I turned a lot of heads wearing these today.

Pray for justice!

I have never shared this story on my blog it's a hard thing for me to talk about and often makes me overwhelmed with anger and sadness.

About 4 years a go my brother was accused of and awful crime.

It was all based on a lie that his ex wife's family came up with to try and gain custody of my nephew my brothers son.

At the the time my brother had full custody of his son because his ex-wife was and still is an unfit parent.

My Brother is a good father and was doing the best job he could do raising his son.

His ex's family could find no legal way to get custody of my nephew so they played dirty and created a lie in order to gain custody.

To make a long story short the legal system failed my brother and he was sent to prison for 25 years for a crime he did not commit.

We always new he had an unfair trial we just never new the ex-stint of how unfair things were until a few days a go.

He was blessed with an amazing new a pellet lawyer who saw all the injustices that were made he is doing his hardest to right the wrong that was made.

The reason I am sharing this story is to ask for prayers on my brothers be half.

I am hopping and praying for a mistrial or at the very least a new trial.

The supreme court is reviewing his case in the next few weeks.

I am praying that there eyes will be opened and there hearts will be softened and that they will right this wrong that had been made.

Please keep my brother Carl in your thoughts and prayers.

It is my fondest wish to give him a big hug in month when i am back in he lower 48's.

Thank you.

Just hanging out.

Sunday Kadie came over with Dan for Easter dinner after dinner we just hung out and goofed around.

Not sure whats going on with Mylissas look maybe she is trying to act sultry.

Madeline must have felt the need to floss her teeth and saran wrap was all she could find.

And here is me just talking to my honey.

Love days like this.

Walking in the dark..

I feel like I am walking in the dark with faith being my only light .

Dale did not get the job we are bummed but hopeful the right one will come along.

Fear over whelms me some days knowing that in 2 months we will have no income if Dale dose not get a job but as soon as the fear takes over I feel comfort in knowing every thing will be fine.

I also can't believe that we are moving out of our house in a month renting it to a stranger and moving to Colorado.

We know this is the right thing to do but sill it's scary.

Hopefully in a few days we will have some more answers.

So I am begging again for more prayers that Dale gets a job soon.

Good old Fashion play.

I heard Ben shout out 3 men the rest down I am not out yet.

I went into his bedroom and saw this 

Army men set up all over his bedroom.

Dan my son in law Garret and Ben were all play an intense game of army men.

Dan was on one side of the room and Ben was on the other side

Garrett was in the middle

It was so fun to hear them playing.

No electronic just good old fashion Army men.

My brave little boy.

When I was on vacation Ben's skin got neglected, not intentionally but all the same he is suffering because it.

His hands and feet are a mess and he is slowly healing.

Part of his healing therapy is water it sooths his skin and heps get rid of the dead skin with out damaging it.

His skin was so scabbed , bloody and raw putting water on it felt like I was pouring salt on it.

He screamed and cried I finally bribed him with a baggy of gold fish.

I left the room and when I came back in He had the fish in the tub with him.

He was singing a fishing I will go a fishing I will go I will put them in the tub heat them all and eat them all for diner.

Crazy fun kid.

Cold head hot chest!

I went to tuck Benny in bed and this is how he was dressed.

Yep a lumber jack hat and a bare chest.

When I asked Ben why he had a hat on he said "My head is cold" I then asked why he had no shirt on he said "My chest was hot"

The kid cracks me up.

It's my birthday and I will cry if I want to!

It's my birthday and I will take ugly pictures if I want to.

It's my birthday and will have pretty toes because I like them.

It's my birthday and I will eat nasty colored blue doughnuts with bunny sprinkles on them because I want them.

It's my birthday and I will get pretty flowers form my hubby for my birthday because he loves me.

{I just wish he was here to give me birthday kisses}

Thanks to everyone who has given me birthday loves and wishes.

I am still alive

I have been so busy with everything thats going on that I haven't had time to write in my blog.

I feel like my life is on fast forward right now!

We are moving to Colorado in less than two month.

My tummy hurts every time I think of having to be out of this house in almost a month.

I haven't even started dejunking or anything.

Yikes!

My motto is just have faith that every thing will work out.

It has so far once we put our fears behind and have pure trust in the Lord every thing is starting to fall into place.

Dale is still in Co trying to get a job he has a 2nd interviews on Wednesday so please keep him in your prayers or thoughts.

Our house still hasent so if you can pray for that too I would appreciated that. 

If it dose not sale we will end up renting my biggest fear but I will just continue to have faith that it will all work out.

I have so much catching up I will be updating more tonight.

Mixed emotions!

Dale and I went to Williams grave for the first time in 5 years .It was very emotional and I have a lot of mixed feelings.

I will share more pictures and thoughts later.

Spring fever?

Found this cute bowl and plate and just had to get them, they are so fun and scream spring.

As soon as I saw them I new what I was going to make with them.

Any guess?

I will show you tomorrow!

21 years I would have never guessed!

March 24 th Dale had his retirement ceremony , it was small and fuss free event just they way Dale wanted it.

Here he is getting his award and metal for service, it has some fancy name but I cant remember it.

Our good friend BJ, Dales supervisor put together This amazing shadow box reflecting his career.

The flag was flown over the capitol of the united States  in honer of Dale on Jan 3 2011.

This was the certificate stating that.

{Very cool i might add}

It was a nice day and a proud one for Dales parents and I. 21 years a go when he joined I never guessed we would have a child in WY then move to California and add 2  more little girls move to Kansas and have 2 little boys , Then 4 years later move to another part of California  where we would add 3 more kids.  I would have never guessed I would have to  kiss my husband goodbye as he got on a plane to go to war. I would have never guessed we would ever need to say goodbye to our youngest child as he died in our arms. I would have never guessed 200 amazing military men and women would have attended his funeral in support of our family. I would have never guessed that I would have met my closest and blessed fiends. I would have never guessed that we would ever be living in Alaska where our oldest child met and married her eternal companion.

The military has been an amazing way of life for us in away I am sad it is over but excited for this new adventure of civilian life to began.

Life is Good!!

My life has been so busy these last two weeks that some days I feel like I just wake up rush through the day and then go to sleep hopping I missed nothing.

I am watching Miss M 4 days a week again and now I have her baby brother J so getting used to a baby again is a lot of work.

I do have to say my kids love having a baby around again.

I always have to giggle when I see Garrett my giant 12 year old play with little J.

He lays on the floor and talks with him reads to him and plays with his toys with him.

Little J eats it up!

This week will be just as busy as the last two weeks.

My in laws are hear they came in last Thursday just in time to see Dale retire after 21 years in the Air Force.

I will share more on that later.

Friday Dale and I will be leaving to Colorado for 10 days I am excited.

It will be nice to get a way from the cold and to go shopping.

I really need the break and plus I will be seeing friends and family.

I will also get to see Williams grave, I haven been to there in almost 5 years.

More catching up later.